Hey Dear Life

Uhm~~~ I dug up some of my archives today and saw this old song of mine~
I just wanna share it~
It's quite emo-ish, but I hope you like it~ enjoy ^___^

Hey Dear Life

Verse 1 (rap)

I dont even know if that image is me
Is that really the me that I'm supposed to be
The picture of a guy with no future to see
Covered with doubts which is as big as sea

I'm a wandering heart wanting some place to seat
Yet I wandered around the dark alley and street
wanting to see a light that would bring me heat
ending all up with just a pity to beat

This is the story of my life's fate
digging some love from morning till eight
hoping some change now that it's late
I dont understand until it turn to hate

Chorus:
Hey dear life, when would you bow down to me
With all these struggles, what am I suppose to see
every night, all cries oh~
hey dear life, when would you start loving me
I want you to be with me
I want to smile again, carefree~~

Verse 2: (rap)
If life or the time could just stay still
I could have known how does it really feel
Rather than misunderstanding and the feeling of ill
with all these worries about paying my bill

Glorious life is not what I'm asking
Normal life is what I'm dealing
Selling my soul with this life's gambling
But I ended with my self losing~

All I ever wanted is security
but I ended up with all impurity
Now I'm taking out my insecurity
Grooving it all out from my own diggity

Chorus:
Hey dear life, when would you bow down to me
With all these struggles, what am I suppose to see
every night, all cries oh~
hey dear life, when would you start loving me
I want you to be with me
I want to smile again, carefree~~

Hey dear life would you be with me
Dear life, Dear life~
oh~ I'm longing for you
and a single smile, carefree~

Change

"Change doesn't seem to be permanent… As Change Being Constant…"

Chane as a process is constant but Change brought up by the process ain't permanent.

Change surely does works… But it seems that it returns like any cycles. As to what they say, nothing’s constant in this world of ours. Hope, dreams, and even our own lives can change and can even return to its old golden times. Even love is not constant. That’s how life is…

Have you ever felt the way that you started to change and suddenly, you felt like things our coming back to you and you are coming back to where you were…

Well, it’s the cycle of life. We can do nothing about it. You will surely come back to what you were before. From ashes, you rise, and as your fall come into you, You’ll return to ashes…

Reality of Life

"How I Love Her Naive Perception of Me, How I wish it was true but I'm afraid it isn't"

Life could be so harsh yet so favorable to you… It’s like putting you in a double jeopardy wherein your judge is the whole world… the society in particular… 

Basically, life had been on and off. Today, one is in front of you then the next day, no one is. Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore? Doesn't anybody thought of thinking of others more than he/she thinks of his/herself? A man being an island had been put into everybody's mind. 

If everything has a purpose, why is it always so dark and too dim for our naked eyes to see and recognize? and If sufferings tend to make us stronger, why does it always go the other way around and crashes our fragile hearts?

Too many questions… Too many desires… Is it the nature of man to blame or is it our own decision and will to find something to blame? The hardest and the most painful thing is… knowing that you have the thing you want in your hands or in just a few inches away from… Yet, you can't do it cause taking risk might make you lose the most important things of yours…

Sigh.. I just hope everything will be provided an answer that will end our sufferings… I just hope so…

A New Beginning

Well, I want to start my blog freshly since it's my "new" blog. But my first few posts are my edited posts on my previous blog. I would like to share some of my thoughts to you guys as well as you could know me well through those blog entries. So, please enjoy~